i suggest if you wanted to root out a pretnder like myself if that's what you think i am you should just air it and burn me on all the blogs or whatever you crazy kids do. it seems to me like fair fodder really, i suppose i took a risk saying anything; the best yields are made of the most finely destructive risks? whoop!

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trans-gender... it's the new grunge
- carolinigian


satan has a new face, skinny jeans.

nope my name is nathan and i wrote in rainbows in 2002.
reckoner is a song to my dad telling him to give up because i hated him when i was eighteen and he made me sleep above a drain for six months and work for him for fuck all on the pretext that he didn't trust me, he kicked me out when i was sixteen. real simple like. i figure you won't believe me because it sounds nuts but that's the way it is. most of the lyrics and song concepts and arrangements on that record are my work from the space of about 5 years up till 2007. but sporadically. needless to say that would make me a fan i guess. the might notice the obscurity of the enunciation on the lyrics in that particular song if you're really curious, type them up into a message and i'll make the ammendments if you like. it's actually supposed to be that way, so that the content could be viewed by a wider audience and not really hamper the progress of the context of the record. meanwhile you're thinking not only could some weirdo be all like full of shit but what kind of outcast teenager has these kinds of concepts floating around. i think you'll find that the open letter in the chicago chronicle? (citation needed) that billy corgan wrote that got the band back together is a verbatim from myself also... but alice, alas this is just the opening of the rabbit hole. i suppose if you're offended or curious you could quiz me? anyhow the reason for reckoner by the way is because it's a double entendre... ie to say that a reckoner is something to be reckoned with however when my dad used to try to demean my mistakes in work or whatever he would ask me 'what di i reckon?' and therefore a statement of authority is something to be reckoned with. I was poking fun at him but profoundly and also making a statement about the fact that even though we were very different unfortunately we were very alike. i'm only telling you what i know. needless to say =mandapants who is my ex grilfriend from five years ago can attest to the fact that i actually rang my dad for advice on the day she walked out... i guess it's just reference to the lyrical content but viewed in context it says that he is everything that is wrong with me... as she can also attest, yet i forgive him; and even though i still love the girl she's gone and here i am.

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trans-gender... it's the new grunge
- carolinigian


satan has a new face, skinny jeans.